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Friday, 16 March 2012

  • So Daniel and I are no longer together.  He texted me yesterday telling me he was moving out while I was at work and then told me he was breaking up with me.  He didnt even have the nerve to say it to my face.  As much as I still love him and want to be with him, I have lost pretty much all respect for him.  He even went as far at taking the bed from our place because his name was also on the credit card that was paying for it, even though I paid for everything else.  He says he wasnt happy anymore but wont give me a real reason as to why he was unhappy.  I think losing the baby put too much stress on both of us.  I think I am still in shock but I am staying at my parents for a couple days.

Sunday, 29 January 2012

  • Well, the only reason I am writing right now is because I am avoiding work.  Both work work and school work.  I am really really really hoping for a snow day tomorrow it has been snowing all weekend.  It would be the first one of the school year.  Yes you read right, I live in Michigan (where it is normal to have 5 snow days by now) and it is the end of JANUARY and this is the first real snow we have gotten all winter.  It is quite frustrating.  I just checked the weather and it is supposed to be 43 on Tuesday which means all the snow will be melted by then.  This weather is pissing me off...

Tuesday, 27 December 2011

  • Two little lines...

    So for the past couple weeks I have been feeling just kind of eh.  Ive been tired, nauseous, and my boobs have been sore. I went out to eat with some friends and had a weird craving for ribs (which if you know me, I dont eat ribs).  At work, one of my parapro's kept telling me she thought I was pregnant.  She wanted to get a test and have me take it at work.  It was pretty comical but I just brushed it off and continued working, it was like our little joke.  Then, I decided to take a test on Christmas morning and what do you know?  2 little pink lines appeared!  Daniel and I are expecting our first baby!!!  I dont know how far along I am, but when I called the doctor they thought I am about 6 weeks.  I have a real appointment next week. 

    Its kind of been surreal.  We havent told anyone yet, his sister kind of figured it out when Daniel decided to get a margarita when we were at lunch with her just to spite me.  But other than her, we havent said anything to family or friends.  We are both excited and now we are really starting to look for a house.  It would be too crowded with our 2 cats, dog, baby and us.  Dont think that would work too well. 

    Well thats all Im writing for now.  I will try to update with more information when I can!  Happy Holidays to everyone!!

Wednesday, 17 August 2011

  • So I have been trolling facebook like a creeper lately and it drives me crazy.  I see everyone around me, everyone I went to school with (high school and college) and family/Daniels family, experiencing everything I want in my life.  I see people with the rings on their fingers or their pregnant little bellies and I get super jealous.  And on top of that, Im menstrual right now so Im extra emotional about it too.

    For over a year now, I have been wanting to have a baby.  Daniel is aware of this and his mentality is "I would like to wait but if it happens then it happens."  He is aware of the fact that I am practically desperate for one.  Im secure in my career and housing situation and now Im ready for the next step in my life.  When I "planned" my life timeline and when I would like things to happen, I said I wanted to have a baby by the time Im 23.  Well I will be 23 in less than 4 months so that was thrown off course.  I know I am crazy but its like I see all these people who are not in a relationship, still work in fast food, live with their parents and by accident they get pregnant.  Here I am WANTING to and it does not seem to happen.  Im not even on birth control!

    To add to my crazy baby obsession, I want to get engaged and get married.  Daniel was all gung-ho about it when we first started dating and now all of a sudden hes like "I want to wait until I get out of school".  ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!?!?! YOU JUST STARTED SCHOOL LIKE 2 MONTHS AGO!!!!!!  I look at all these people posting pictures of their rings and their weddings and they havent even been dating for as long as we have.  One guy proposed on their 3 month anniversary! Now I do think that is too soon but you get the point. 

    I know these things will come with time, but Im not the type of person who can just stand still.  I feel like my life is not moving forward and its making me very antsy.  Im impatient.  The only forward movement in my life right now is that Im working on my Masters degree.  This is driving me crazy and as more and more time passes, I find myself taking out my anxiousness on Daniel.  I get snippy with him, I get angry over little things (like his truck has been broken for over 2 weeks and so he is staying at his parents) and I build up events and trips in my mind so much as being that one moment where he asks me to marry him that I am constantly disappointed and it is wearing me down.  I know I shouldnt think that its going to happen at any point in time, but I dont know how to stop thinking about it. 

    I started back at work this week.  There are a lot of big changes so lets hope that this school year runs smoothly!

Sunday, 27 March 2011

  • We have been in our apartment for two weeks now and I love it! Of course we still have no mattress and the air mattress sucks and we are broke right now but it is still enjoyable.

    So it seems that ever since my scare this summer I have had babies on the brain and it has kind of been driving me crazy. Daniel and I have been talking about it and I think I want to start officially trying. It feels like everyone around me has been having babies and I don't know... I just feel ready. Am I crazy?

    Anyways I will just keep this short. Hope everyone is doing well!

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